GOING THROUGH THE EMOTIONS..........

OK SO IM SO UP AND DOWN RIGHT NOW. I AM GOING THROUGH THE EMOTIONS. IM SO SAD AND I REALLY JUST WANT THIS PAIN IN MY HEART TO GO AWAY!!!! I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO TURN MY SADNESS INTO ANGER? NOT SAYING THAT ANGER IS A GOOD THING BUT SOMETIMES WHEN YOUR ANGRY IT HELPS GET PAST THE SADNESS? I DONT KNOW REALLY WHAT TO DO? GRRR LIFE WILL GO ON NO MATTER WHAT BUT IM HAVING TROUBLE GETTING TO THAT NEXT STEP. SO FOR NOW IM GONNA TURN TO THE ANGER TO HELP ME GET OVER IT. AS IM WRITING THIS I KNOW IT MIGHT NOT BE THE BEST WAY TO HANDLE THIS BUT ITS WHAT WORKS FOR ME. IM NOT ANGRY AT A PERSON BUT I AM ANGRY AT THE SITUATION!!!!! SO FOR NOW IM NOT READY TO MAKE NICE I JUST WANNA BE MAD FOR AWHILE. THATS ALL I GOT RIGHT NOW:(